In The End…

In the end, it all comes down to the experiences you get to share with the people around you. And maybe more important, did those experiences bring some happiness, to you, and them?

Or maybe, just maybe, in the end I’ll know a little more about Robbie Burns?

Today is the last day of my contract working with the tremendous group of people at the Centre for Scottish Studies at Simon Fraser University. – Leith Davis, the Director, and “my boss” (she brought me on board), John Craig, our Dean, (and go-to man when you need a great speaker) and the lovely Kaila Langevin (was always there!).

I can’t believe it’s been two years.

I can’t believe SFU actually let me be a part of this great place. Thank goodness no one ever asked for my educational background. Some things are better left unsaid.

It has been a blessing and an important piece of the puzzle in my Scottish life.

During my time at SFU I was given the opportunity to create and put on some amazing events. No doubt some future blogs will probe into the outcome of some of the endeavours.

The most important was the Burns Marathon, the Robbie Burns Day Reading Marathon to be exact.

It’s the reason I got to work at SFU. My insane idea to set a world record for the continuous recitation of Burns’ poetry and song. Leith OK’d the premise and it grew from there.

It is the people I met at the Marathon that have had the biggest hold on my heart. They are the reason this ending is a little bitter sweet. For three years we came together to celebrate a man’s creative and personal statements. Robbie is the Scot the Scot’s love. I loved to watch as people took their turn at the podium and I heard in their voice a true affection and collaboration with the words. I got to hear the heartfelt stories about why specific poems were important. I witnessed many tears. I shared many smiles. Above all, I hope the Marathon made a great many people happy.

I believe Mr. Burns would have loved every minute.

I know I did.

With Rob MacNeil from the SFU Pipe Band at the 2014 Burns Marathon

With Rob MacNeil from the SFU Pipe Band at the 2014 Burns Marathon

Write a book

Anyone can write a book. Put a pen to paper or get those fingers moving on your computer’s keyboard. Type or print or write a word. Then another. Now a sentence, then a paragraph, put together a chapter and repeat. Do this over and over again. At the end of it you will have a book. See? All it takes is time.

That’s the easy part.

The hard part is writing a book people want to read.

I finished what I hope is the final edit on my book yesterday. And I’ll be honest with you, the process was not easy. At some point you decide you want the story to be well told. And that meant I had to throw out most of what I had written and start again. The first version was a mere shadow of this final draft. Thank goodness.

And thank goodness I’ve had the help of so many people over the last year with the process. When the time comes I will spend hours writing the acknowledgment section of my book to make sure I include all those precious names. My heart has not forgotten one of you.

Here’s the sad part.

I have done what anyone could do. I wrote a book. No big deal. Anyone can do it.

Here’s the tough part.

The next step is to find an agent. And with luck, to find an agent that finds an interested publisher. Yes, I know there are other endless options but it all comes down to the same cold, hard fact: “Will someone want to read my book?” and maybe even more so: “Will enough someones want to read my book?”

That is the crazy making part.

It’s why I called my book “The Long Game.”

Long Game pic web

Really?

After my blog last week a few people informed me that while they enjoyed the story, they needed to point out Humza Yousaf was not Scottish. This counter information was passionately given as to why a dark skinned man that Wikipedia proclaimed was “Islam” could not be considered Scottish.

Really?

Everyone is allowed their beliefs.

I might have balked and argued more if I had been told I was not Canadian. (By the way, I did balk and argue in Humza’s defense; how could I not?)

If you follow their line of thinking, I am not Canadian because I’m a Tibetan Buddhist. Even though I was born in Vancouver, my religion supersedes everything.  Does this mean I must now hand over my passport? Or give up my spiritual practice? Such a dilemma.

Does it come down to DNA and not where you are born? Yippee I say to that… then I get to be Scottish! But wait, I love being Canadian. We are a good folk. (Sorry, but I just have to point that out.)

How about what we love? Can we decide where we belong on that basis?

I’m positive Humza loves Scotland. But then again, he loves his family and friends. Maybe we should go back to my point from last week’s post. I believe he is a good man.

This leads to another angle. Shall we start giving out passports based on kindness?

I would love to see how and who would decide the credentials for that.

I’m Canadian, Humza’s Scottish. Get over it. No piece of paper can or will ever show what is in our hearts.

 

Intent with Integrity

I love politics. Even when I’m getting knocked down with the drama and challenge that comes with a political game, I still love to play. There is a little bit of politics in everything and for me it’s the ultimate show.

Human nature plays a big role in politics. At least it does from my perspective. Good or bad, right or wrong, yes or no; the decision will come down to a person’s integrity.  And my vote will always come down to how I perceive it.

The clincher is when I find “intent with integrity” and that is what I heard and felt listening to Humza Yousaf at SFU last week. I had attended a private event the night before and had the opportunity to speak with him one-on-one… my overlying thought was, I want to vote for this man. I want to follow his path. I like him. And how come we don’t have these types of politicians in Vancouver today?

Humza is a member of the Scottish Government. Google him, you will be amazed.

I’m in a lucky position to personally know some people that have made politics their life’s work.  They are good, decent humans wanting to do what’s right. The public throws politicians into the same garbage can, and that’s ridiculous and racist. I can guarantee you the people I have become close to are upstanding types (and you know I would be quick to call out the scum.)

But back to Humza. He’s young, and intense and clearly making the most of what he does best. His plate is full with the mission to make Scotland a better place. He was here in Vancouver to attract business to Scotland as well as preach the “yes” vote in the upcoming referendum.

I agreed when a friend said, “We are seeing the future of politics in Scotland.”

For me, it will always come down to how we relate as human beings…

That first meeting, Humza leaned in and listened as I shared my story of how his government helped locate my birth-family history in Scotland. I saw empathy and a touch of pride in his eyes. But most of all, I saw a man caring about another person’s life.

We need more people like that.

Humza and me web

 

 

Who Knew?

The boss appeared at my office door and said we needed to talk. I followed him into a small boardroom, we sat down, and then he proceeded to tell me I no longer had a job. One of the seventeen people laid off that fateful day.

April 2, 1996.

Hard to believe it was eighteen years ago. Hard to believe what happened changed my life direction in a way I did not see coming.

I dislike the joyful proclamations of “a door opens when one is closed bla bla bla”. Nothing, and I mean nothing, is good about losing your job. The shock and hurt and panic are mind-numbing. I was a big time TV and radio producer at one of Canada’s top ad agencies. There wasn’t a huge opportunity to ply my trade at other places. I thought, no, I knew I was fucked.

So I went and got very drunk.

Then in an alcohol haze I decided to become a personal trainer.

The decision to become a writer took a few more years to manifest… though I was most likely drunk when I made that declaration. (Crazy ideas while drunk seem to be a trend with me… thank goodness I don’t drink often.)

April 3, 1996 was the day I started the quest to change my profession. Many twists and turns have filled and sidelined the last eighteen years. They have been challenging and exhilarating with many mutations in between.

Fear and a tenacious attitude helped me those first few months. Luckily I had the support of some steadfast friends. I believe luck and fate were mixed into the scenario. And also good karma.  To be honest, I think karma was more of a factor than anything else.

Many people show up at work to find they will lose their jobs that day. I hope they have a drink and fantasize about what life might have in store for them.

Each and every April 2 I think about what happened to me all those years ago. Today I was busy with six incredible personal training clients and two writing projects.  Not a great deal of time to ponder the past.

But maybe just enough time to pour myself a drink.